Story 225
When the institution betrays those it employs for their livelihoods. Managers who don’t manage. Leaders who don’t lead.
There’s a question that gets wielded like a weapon at Citi: If you’re not happy, why don’t you leave?
It sounds like honesty. It isn’t. It’s a deflection — a way of avoiding accountability while making discontent seem like a personal failing. A lack of personal resilience. A “you” problem, not a “them” problem.
The irony is that when you do leave, the same people who didn’t lift a finger to retain you act wounded by your departure. They had no ability — or intention — to change anything. They just wanted you to stay quiet.
Promotion at places like Citi has little to do with merit or contribution. It’s a popularity contest for managers to stem turnover and attrition — a defense mechanism for mediocrity.
Managing Directors protect each other through unsavory “friendships” built over years — not on performance, but on mutual complicity. When investigations arise, truth doesn’t get uncovered. Accomplices don’t tell on accomplices.
I had been warned before I joined. They promote their friends. Progression is nearly impossible. It’s like dealing with children, and the people in authority benefit from things staying broken. I didn’t listen. Every word of that assessment has proven true.
Here is what I want anyone reading this to understand — especially if you’ve just been pushed out:
They were never going to do right by you. Bury that notion. Grieve it if you need to, then move on.
Your performance review was not an honest assessment of you. It was a legal document, manufactured to justify a decision that had already been made. Do not internalize it. Do not let Citi write the story of who you are.
Be glad to be free from the swamp. It is a liberation for the soul. You cannot flourish there. You cannot do your best work there.
Don’t wait for external validation of the wrong that was done to you. The need is legitimate, but if Citi were capable of morality, respect, and integrity, it would already be demonstrating them. Everything documented on this site is evidence that it won’t change.
Reclaim your agency. Tell your story. You are not required to accept their narrative — it was constructed only to justify your layoff.
Consider it a blessing to be gone before the implosion comes. There are no signs of improving health here. Take what you’ve learned and build something sounder, saner, somewhere else. No one deserves this level of abuse.
If you’re ready to act: turn your grief into civic action. Boycott their products and services. Report their operational failures to the CFPB or other regulators. Take a stand.
What’s happening there reflects on them — not on you. The arrogance of people who don’t even understand what they’ve become is a special kind of delusion.
No one carrying a big title in that place is worth their salt anywhere else in the market.